Mayan Dream Musings

I’m in my studio listening to the scream of the Golden Eagle on the “Living the Possible” music. Outside the light is soft. Dawn was about 30 minutes ago and the sun is just beginning to light up the autumn leaves.

My inner world feels very quiet this morning. I am full up with a new space that is unknown. The voices of chaos nibble at me (a friend of mine had a phrase “being nibbled to death by a duck” that I just love!) from the borders of my awareness, but they can’t budge the strength of this new quiet space.

My friend Susan who does so much of my graphic design work, and who is quite an artist with animals and the energies of the portals, is going into surgery for breast cancer this morning. My spirit and her spirit are intertwined in many ways from probably many dimensions. Her Soul is supporting her with the same quiet and strength that I am feeling today. I will be with her throughout this time of transformation.

All of us have to leave our physical body at some point. Illness is the most common way that we are assisted to leave. That means that illness is NOT something that we have done wrong, or an indication that we are not fully evolved, or any of the other things that I hear sometimes. Illness may point the way to transformation into a new person who will continue to live for a time on this Earth. Illness may assist transformation into the next spiritual world and out of our physical body. Both ways of illness are transformative.

Healing then is the support of the highest form of transformation of which an individual is capable. This transformation is physical, emotional, mental, spiritual, and through all of the fields of the person. Healing may extend through various lifetimes, and through alternate realities (Check out your physics!). The body is capable of so incredible a rejuvenation. If it is not time to die, healing means a total rejuvenation and new life for a person.

My part in all of this is my music and my presence. These are so intertwined that they are not separate. Music has such a power to assist transformation into a person’s highest potential.

Love to all.

This is one of those middle of the night creative spaces. We have the first hard frost this night. It brings that crisp cold to the air that feels so good on the skin.
The moon is full and absolutely gorgeous….showering down on the Earth the moon’s own unique creative light. The veil between worlds is very thin this evening.

I was dreaming about a very gentle, loving person who was moving me through all of my musical process. In this dream, we were meeting every day and working with all of the music I have created. As I woke up, there were two pieces of music that we had not yet worked with…..one of them was The Beloved. It was a lovely dream…..telling me again how supported I really am by those who watch over me and who give me the music for creation. I am so very grateful!

People throughout the world e-mail me with comments on my music. I love this interaction because it reminds me constantly of how the different kinds of music that I write are needed for different aspects of living. Many people want The Beloved….especially the first and second tracks. Others find that the music of Heart of Sky/Heart of Earth is moving them into their own space of transformation. Some are listening to Atitlan Fire and really appreciating the movement of the drums. The Healing Music is especially transformative right now for those who are moving through the profound changes that are part of the illness process. All of this is part of the flow of life and love.

Soon Emergence will be out……telling the story of EMERGENCE….yet another aspect of our living story on the planet Earth. Beauty on planet Earth is in constant change…ebb and flow…creation….the seamless movement of death and rebirth…..crisp cold that brings an end to one season’s growth and at the same time preparing the way for the next season…..the beauty of Autumn leaves as trees go dormant……soon snow. Since we are an integral part of planet Earth, that is the story of our EMERGENCE.

The Mystical Rose music will be complete in two weeks and is the gentle, loving presence that I talked about from my dream last night. So supportive…..so wanting us to live the largest lives possible. This gentle, loving presence will be manifesting through music that is soft, and through music that is very rhythmic. Lots of various kinds of bells, and wind chimes, and strings and drum and …..some things that I don’t know yet because all of the music of Mystical Rose is not yet written. Whether this music is strong and rhythmic, or soft and melodic, it all carries the gentle love of the Heart of Everything.

The fires in Southern California were so very difficult for so many people. Now thousands and thousands either have to find the larger story as they rebuild, or assist friends and family as they find the larger story to rebuild. Let us keep them in our strong, loving presence to help provide the strength they need.

Love to all.

It’s been a while since I wrote. So much has been happening that writing kind of got lost. Sorry!

To all of you in California….my thoughts and prayers are with you in this profound natural disaster of fire.

I arrived home from my trip to Lake Atitlan and to Copan on October 6. It is now 18 days later and my music is changing again. I walked among the ancient trees in Copan …. I soaked up sunlight, or moonlight, or watched the milky way, or walked in rain, or recorded bird song, or children’s laughter…..all of these things came back home with me as music.

Right now I am recording a new album which is tentatively called Mystical Rose. The Mystical Rose music is teaching me that the Source/Heart of all Things/God/Sophia is a loving, gentle, supporting, all encompassing weaving of unconditional love. No matter the outer events, this weaving is always present.
Mystical Rose is the music which unfolds the Heart of All Things. It is my music for the Holiday Season of Love and Light of 2007.

Also, Soul/Deepbody music is being recorded this week and next.

Susan is preparing for me a beautiful winter scene for the marketing of all of my music before the holidays. It is my belief that the mail you receive from me should be ensouled, and contribute to the beauty in your life.

Over the last week I wrote a story of my 30 year cycle from 1976 to 2006, and also my 20 year cycle of being a composer of original music from 1987-2007.
This was a way of really claiming all of my life journey from the space of the Mystical Rose music: The Heart of Everything. I have been musician, friend, administrator, teacher of private students, mother, wife, composer, lover of nature, woman who loves to be funny, and crazy, and to play. All of these aspects of me are woven together as my life and they are supported in love. The times that felt hard, and the times that felt wonderful were all supported by the weaving of The Heart of Everything.

Since 1987 I have composed Mayan Dream (1989), The Beloved I (1990), The Beloved II (1991), Watchers (1991), Stille Pointe (1991), Joy (1991), Dancers of the Flame (1996), Walking the Labyrinth (1996), Mayan Portal (1996), Chilam (1996), released most of this on The Beloved as CD (2000) , Edgewalker (2003) The Journey of Joy CD (2003), helped organize an album for Tulio in 2004, Heart of Sky/Heart of Earth (2006), the first two Soul/Deepbody albums (2006), 18 more Soul/Deepbody albums (2007), Healing Music album (2007), Emergence album ( 2007) Lake Atitlan music (2007), Earth Essence Music (2007.

All of this music has come because I have a purpose as a composer. As I have said so many times: “You can’t demand or order the music. It comes in its own timing and in its own way.”

Love to all of you. Again, my prayers are with those of you who have lost homes, family, friends, or the beauty of the nature around you.

It’s absolutely pouring down rain outside. My first reaction was “oh no!” I needed to go shopping today. However, the rain is so beautiful and it’s sound is on many of my recordings now. There is something supportive and loving about the sound of rain. Nature’s wisdom!!

I just finished writing the description for my new piece of music called DUSK which will be on this website for free download (Earth Essence Music) this evening. Here is what I wrote: “Remember yourself in a place of comfort and beauty. It is that magical time when the sun has set and darkness is not complete. You are cradled in a lovely soft light and hear the gentle night sounds of frogs peeping, crickets, cicadas. In the profound wisdom of dusk, your heart opens wide to receive love, wisdom, to begin the rest cycle.”

Well….it is a soft light outside my window right now. Even though it is 9:45AM, it feels like dusk.

It has been ten days since I returned from Guatemala/Honduras. This time has been spent very quietly in gentle reorganization of ME, and of my business. I have needed to sleep A LOT. Very little outward movement….lots of inward movement.

On another topic: I have received a lot of feedback over the last several weeks that people are still appreciating and using The Beloved CD (released in 1990). The Beloved remains my Soul music and the figure ground music for all of my creative work. Remember the story of this music….the melody came while I was driving in Indiana farmland….track one was recorded and released as a solo cassette. Then other pieces began to come forward as I traveled into Mexico and Central America….the expanded Beloved melody…Watchers…Stille Pointe…Chilam…Walking the Labyrinth…Mayan Portal. Each of these pieces has an aspect of the Soul/Deepbody journey of all of us. The music is profoundly healing and transformative. Thank you to the SOURCE of all music for giving this music to me…and through me….to you.

Onward now to the next adventure! Have a beautiful day.

On Friday, Walt and I went to Bloomington to see and hear Jason defend his thesis for his PhD in Physics. I remember vividly when Jason was a child he had to know how everything worked. Things got taken apart on a regular basis! A special time that Jason and I had for a while was Thursday night pizza….just him and I. Jason would talk about how he wanted to know about space and time and what that was all about. This was when he was eight or nine.

Jason’s journey to get his PhD was challenging. He had years when he didn’t know if things were going to work out….money was tight….but he continued. Of course, Leah was there for him always. She is also going to have her PhD in Physics soon, and they shared over these last years the journey….good times and really hard times.

When Jason’s advisor officially told him that he had passed the defense and was approved for his PhD, his joy was incredible to see. His whole being shined with light. Now Leah will give a major talk in Germany tomorrow on Physics and Jason is with her.

It’s amazing and inspiring to me that Jason gave his thesis defense (one hour talk with power point and then one hour of intense questioning by physics professors) after completing the Chicago marathon last week, and starting a new job in Chicago just a few weeks ago. And…of course….Leah also completed the marathon and was doing the demanding work of writing the talk for Germany, getting it approved, and giving practice talks…all while helping Jason with his final preparations.

WOW!

Kudos, kudos to Jason and Leah for walking the journey with class. You are an inspiration to the rest of us.

Remember that commercial for Nasonex that has the little bee saying “I have returned….a changed bee!”. (You have to imagine the accent)

I loved that phrase and it SO describes my return from my 12 days in Guatemala and Honduras. It really takes two days to travel to Lake Atitlan from Fort Wayne. This time of travel brings me from the old reality through transition and into the beginning of change. By the time I arrive at Lake Atitlan, I am already in a different space. You can see pictures of the Lake Atitlan area by going to the the Atitlan Fire download page (click on the link from the home page of this website). This is a powerful and beautiful part of the world. I crossed the lake on three separate days to be a part of the cofredia rituals. These rituals survive from the days of the classical Maya. They have blended with the Catholic church saints, and especially Mary, and much incense and drumming and chanting to bring two traditions that are very ancient into a new living ritual that is sacred to these people. Outsiders are usually not invited to be present, and I am extremely honored that I could be a part of the weaving of their ritual on three consecutive days. People often ask me why the Mayan civilization disappeared. My answer: “It hasn’t disappeared. The Mayan people are very much alive. The form has just changed.”

I love the Mayan people of Guatemala and Honduras. They are deeply spiritual, beautiful people.

Into Honduras…..another LONG trip by bus….and another time of transition into the space of Copan and the mountains of Honduras. My time in Copan was spent almost entirely in meditation and walking. I have lots of recordings of the birds and other nature sounds directly from Copan. Expect to hear these on albums and on Soul music albums.

Then two days of travel back to Fort Wayne, and transition into the sacred space and time that is Fort Wayne, Indiana and my family, friends and my studio. The journey continues into living the experiences and the awarenesses from Guatemala and Honduras.

TO ALL OF YOU: Don’t forget to download the EARTH ESSENCE MUSIC. The latest piece was put up on October 2nd and it celebrates the Hawk. So now we have Birds of the Morning, the Wolf, and the Hawk. Coming on October 16th will be “Dusk”. This is gorgeous, gentle music which honors that special time when the sun has set, but night is not totally settled in.

I came back with information about changes for Mayan Dream Productions. Change is good! It will happen quickly.

Love to all.